So I believe this is the first time I've ever decided to combine two different blog posts into one central idea, and I figured, why not? Dude, I've got this! I mean all the events that have taken place pretty much convert into one great idea, and that statement is claiming an exact truth stated by not only the events in other's lives around me, but God Himself telling me.
So it all started out with this one decision. The decision to change my priorities in life from being more focused on my own life and making it right and finally just saying, "You're screwing yourself up, give it up, you know what to do". And I did; I had to give my life away, to God that is. So I prayed about it, and pretty soon I found myself making the decision that I was confident enough would change myself for the rest of my life. I made the decision on May 9th, 2012 to be baptized on May 30th, 2012. And the days leading up to this momentous day were filled with many mistakes, but also happy days and great moments. It was as if sin after sin was committed and I found no true repentance until May 30th. And that is where our story continues.
On May 30th, 2012, I was baptized under my own will and decision. Baptized knowing that I would commit to having Jesus be the leader of my life and following him the rest of my days. Baptized knowing that this would be the second time I have been baptized, but under my own decision I would be making sure I continue this commitment I was making and enjoy the wonder that is God. For I knew that I had been going to Epic/Element for the past two to almost three years now, and I had failed to make my own establishment of getting baptized under my own accord. I was actually appalled that I hadn't made the decision earlier because I truly would've been very determined about it. I suppose my lack of priority organization was a huge sign that I wasn't putting God and Jesus first in my life, and that was the big reason behind it all. I was about fed up with not having God be first, and as of May 30th being immersed in the water just as Jesus was in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. And of course, the tradition itself was not something to make me be of Christian status. My actions afterwards will constitute that along with my faith in God. I'm not worried now as I'm definitely putting God first in my life which is why my volunteering and service opportunities have spread throughout my schedule opening myself to be willing to help others more often now. Not only would this be a good note to end on for my senior year of high school, but it will also be a great beginning for the start of my life in adulthood and finally starting to become a man of God. How satisfying it has been since that day as the days have been growing better and better with each new day, and how grateful I am to wake up each new morning with the breath of life given to me by God, Himself.
Onto yesterday, May 31st, 2012, it was the day of our first graduation practice. It was also the day for many of my last classes, and such a shame it was to say farewell to the freshman debaters soon to be varsity debaters next year knowing that they have been taught well and the progress of their speaking abilities have increased tenfold. I know that I will be wishing to hear about their great successes the next couple of years, and there's no doubt that I'll be willing to help out when I can because that was more than likely to be another family of mine in an extra-curricular event. How regretful I am to have not been able to compete and be on the team for those awesome competitions!
It was the last day for my government class and I was probably more excited to leave that class than I was feeling crappy for leaving it. I mean, of course I learned a lot in the class, and there is no doubt that I will probably continue to remember some of the knowledge I gained from it, but if it wasn't for the people in the class that I had to tolerate every day I had that class, it probably would have been more enjoyable. If anything I'm more thankful for it bringing out my love for the classes stronger than how much I already loved them.
I went to graduation practice with the lowest expectations I've probably had for an event, and it didn't fail to disappoint. Rude humor, swearing all over, the innocence lost from a past good friend, and the easiest process for crossing a gymnasium I've ever gone through. No tears, no emotions really. Only anticipation for what would follow; my rehearsal for being the host at AK and this time under a new theme of EPIC proportions.
It wasn't until I arrived at Hope Fellowship to rehearse my script for the Adventure Kidz service I normally volunteer for did I realize, I found what I greatly enjoy doing! I feel that every time I get up on that stage to preach the word of God in a more fun and interactive, (and somewhat abstract), lesson to children, my heart warms at the cheering and the smiles of those kids. It is not just the joy of helping children that solely fuels my joy for sharing the word of God; it's the actual action of sharing the word of God itself that brings about the most joy. And it was then that I realized that my calling was to truly share the word of God through my gift of speech and wisdom and compassion. My gift of listening pertains as well when people explain their situations to me and therefore allowing me to pray for them. I might not be the greatest person when attempting to create prayers, and it's the hardest thing expressing my feelings through words and adjectives that are commonly used, but I do love doing so.
Everyone knows that one blues swing tune "The Best is Yet to Come", and they feel like it'll be their only inspiration for getting through their tough days. Well there is some truth to that statement, but at the same time, I found it extremely convenient that after the day I was baptized I would see the great fruits of the prayers I prayed hard over. These including the fun times with my girlfriend and the awesome hangout sessions with my own cadre of church goers and close friends. If you learn anything from this entry, know that God will definitely answer your prayers even if not in the fashion or strategy you expected. Be earnest in your prayers and make sure to live for God keeping him as first in your life. If not, then at least consider it or work on doing so!
The happy days are here and the best is not just yet to come, but the best is already continuing to be here.
God bless,
Clark G.
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